tali_phoenix | Entries tagged with life

Ok, sorry about the long delay.

Apparently struggling to exist foodwise, and facing severe hardship of having to find out what fat I can cut from my existance, when I was on lean already... isn't a problem, at least not for my employer... I'm going to just forget to eat and when I passout and they ask whats wrong I'll just weakly blast them. I wonder if this method would work.

At least for this week.

Next week I'm going to be staying with

deeperdown who will force feed me if I try this down there. I'm sooo looking forward to this! I need away from here and my old life.

In the mean time, doing a step by step clearing of my apartment, as its a tip and I've asked a friend to check in every so often, for a specific letter may arrive. Also in case this place is broken into.
Oh, and depression is back, so lets just sit in our housecoats for days at a time, watch a movie 11 times in a row. Oh depression, I've missed you. >.<

Current Mood: thoughtful

Totally freaking out about my appointment with Dr Gerber next month. I'll be kissing my first sunrise of my 25th year on this earth and I will be coming face to face with a man who could potentially alter my future... or maybe I'm building this first meeting up.

How do you approach something like this. Dressed in a manner you find comfortable and not overly masculine or feminine. Casual formal? Badly cross-dressing? First impressions and all that.

Oh well... lets see how many ways I can screw up my life.

Still job hunting, still stressed about that, and subsequent finances. Ramen and loads of walking here I come.

Current Location: Living Room
Current Music: AKA Radio - FiveBot, James Blunt - High

Too Long, Can't Be Bothered Recapping:
Life is good.
Laptop due Tuesday
GIC meeting Wednesday
Work starts back Thursday.
Classes 10 days later.

kinda worried/curious as to what will be asked and said at the clinic but meh. This is something I think? I want.

Hope everyone is doing fantastic in 2010.

Oh yeah and Mass Effect 2, end of this month.

Current Mood: confused
Current Location: The Flat
Current Music: AKA Radio - DJ Johnny Sorrow

So, lil old me, came out with an email to parental units. So far both parents are supportive [fantastic news!], they also informed my brothers I guess, cause one of them wrote a response too saying that I'd always be their oldest sibling.

What sparked this... coming out you ask? The GIC in Glasgow wrote me a nice letter telling me that my first appointment there was on th 6th of January 2010.

Life is good. On almost all fronts, I ditched this semester due to panic attacks basically. Depression/anxiety mixture, and deep paranoia. However, it is all good now!

Current Location: The Flat
Current Music: Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Wizards in Winter

Uhm yeah... frequent updates didn't really happen.

Okay, erm waiting on appointment coming through from the GIC [still - I know these things take time]. Will be changing my name when appropriate, not sure on middle name, keep initials XOR follow my family tradition and use my paternal grandparents first name.

Back at Uni, studying politics, history and philosophy.
additional: my student loans claim was not screwed up, I gots my money on time.

Had a meeting at work [yes dear employers, I will be billing you for cost of travel since this was incurred because you insisted "omg Monday appt or nothing" for this meeting. FUCK YOU!, 40 minutes for travel, each way, for a half hour meeting causing me to miss classes. So that's an expenses claim and flexi-time. I WILL be insisting on it.
Meeting was to explain sleep apnea and my issues with it, in regards to work / sickness absence. Recommendation that I get covered by the Disability Discrimination Act.

Found $old_employer pension details. Will be updating my records with them, or more... I tried, and they did what the could and sent paperwork to allow me to do the rest. Still not got it, will call to check see if they screwed up my address.

Chasing credit card application [worst possible time to do it - however I am careful with money and this is more to build up my credit rating for when the market recovers, bill is getting cleared BEFORE any interest charges hit for I am not stupid.

Still needing to fill out / return form to get me put on the Electoral Roll - will do that today... maybe.

Peace, Love, Understanding and Respect :D

Erm massive update time! Okay, time to recap.

In the past 7 weeks I've pestered the local dr's office - June present with a letter from my counsellor going "Yeah, erm refer to GIC kthnxbai!" I think I mentioned that one.

July, exactly 1 month later I poke for an update and basically it was implied that the referral was being sent, the had to decide IF it was something they could push forward to ONE of the GIC's in Scotland [Sandyford in Glasgow rather than Myskow's Clinic in Edinburgh]

I call just out of curiosity in August, day before the 2 month marker... they were just sending the referral.
Natalie was annoyed but mollified by the fact it was sent.

Still not heard from Sandyford Clinic yet - will call them just to ask. Knowing the dumbasses at Tayside NHS they probably sent it to the student halls of residence where I no longer stay.

Work sucks still - but my friend is back so I get SOME touch woot woot. Almost had to go fulltime worker bee - thats bad. Natalies cant handle full time call centre monkey.

Uni-wise, I have transferred to the MA Politics course, IF I can get £600 or so in 5 days. So far I have £240, with £120 due from a friend/Cuddleslut, £90 from another [J] and unspecified amount from another [L], Hopefully L kicks in £100, or at the very least £50

If not, I'm screwed, totally, in the butt, without lube. By a well endowed wrench.

In other news... I'm so digging on Steampunk styled music and clothing styles.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Location: Livingroom
Current Music: Abney Park - Sleep Isabella / and / Airship Pirate

Behind this cut... is a stream of conciousness rant about my life, and everything going on in it. Read or don't read, but if you read, a little comment might help.

( The Rant Is Here )

Current Mood: worried

Okay. pretty much as Das Title states.

I fucked uni. Royally. Awaiting word back about whether I need to re-apply as a brand new student or not.

In the mean time. This little girl needs to go work full time. Call centre work is not fun. Government work is not fun. - I am doing both :(
The full time is now Mandatory. Due to a miscalculation of my outgoings over the summer. Halls of Residence = Giant Giant Con!

Thankfully my boss is rather sweet, and understanding... and is off sick so can't change my hours till she's back - wont be long I hopes. However after that I'll be sorted for finances and can buy stuff I want. Like clothes that arent plain black stereotypical gothy stuff *glares at the now vanished Nightshade*

Also... lending money is always a pain in the ass, mates owe money, parents owe money... ah wells.

Still, own flat, nice quiet, serene... life is peachy.

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Location: Livingroom
Current Music: Liquid Tension Experiment - Chris and Kevin's Excellent Adventure

Faithful readers, I do apologise.

I've been so distractable that I havent had a chance to post.

Counselling is going well. Post Traumatic Stress Diagnosis AND she agrees that I may have gender dysphoria counsellor L Is helping write a letter to my GP explaining the issues cause I don't trust them. I just need to be punted to the right "specialists". Normally I'm all for counselling and resolving the issues, but damnit, I want the pills. Otherwise I'll be in for repeat panic attacks, self-loathing (damn that protruberance!), depression.

Somehow I seemed to have chatted to the right people "in normal society"... they do not object to me (woohoo! social acceptance high-five), in fact they LIKE me (dives back under the covers and retreats to Internet-Land).

Still trying to catch my advisor of studies so I can leave my current course and switch to Politics (damn it, why cant I find the time to just say "fuck it" and hunt her down!).

Work is still work... oh right, need to let boss + HR know whats going on before I start growing a chest I suppose. - Will wait till *I* know whats going on. In future, plz-do-not-be-telling-me you put in a complaint about my friend. I wanna tell her but I know it makes things worse.

Huh? My dm session has been postponed twice *dance*. Star Trek + Game Of Thrones was worth it (I won!!!!!)
Still reflecting that while Shade was here, he hung out with goths that made no sense. I hang out with hippy-type people, and "non-gothy awesome people" online, and general strange folks off line. Maybe this is a reflection on us/me.
*looks up* Oh my, thats quite a bit. I promise to update more often.

Enjoy a cup of brown joy (Tea!)

Peace and Love.

Right, some updates!

1: We all know that plantboy/ althy/ bellababes/ deadly [aka Me] is a cheapskate, thats why those ads are there. I'm a bookworm, geek and gamer. Deal with it.

2: I am FINALLY settling down at the grand old age of... 20. Yes constant readers, I am giving up heavy drinking and womanising and hopefully me and my dearest Kitten [hereforth recogonised as Fiancée] will be getting our own flat.

3. No one really complained about 2, except her sister, cause we're stealing some limelight.

4. Shes a gamer and a reader and god she loves geeking out. When we can, we often order domino's pizza off the net and just game and watch movies.

Hope everyone is shiny.